Random Ramblings

It's almost seven. I spent the whole day basically doing nothing, and now... I'm wasting whatever time I have left by doing... nothing.

I need to clear the cobwebs in my head again. It may help me to finally start cramming for tomorrow's exam.

So here are the threads of thought flying in and out of my head.

1. I had a fight with my sister. Again. But the difference this time is that I wasn't able to keep my temper. I raised my voice and called her an "ingrata". So now we're not talking to each other. She started it.

2. Usually, when angry, I keep my mouth shut and simmer... or boil... inside. I don't like to simmer. I don't like being always so nice. So this time, I shouted. And I don't feel too good about myself but at least I wasn't simmering. But knowing the usual pattern of our tiffs, I bet we'll be talking to each other in two hours time.

3. I actually googled the Adonis from Mount Olympus, a guy I'm calling Edward for anonymity's sake. Shame on me.

4. A guy in green was in front of our pew at mass this afternoon. Well actually, his shirt wasn't really that green. It was a striped yellow and bluish-greyish-green. But I wasn't taking any chances. So right after the singing of the "Our Father", I ungracefully made my exit and waited until after the peace-be-with-you part ended. I really am getting paranoid or something.

5. And my back is starting to ache so I guess it's about time to hit the books. During the last module quiz, I was almost sure I was going to get it perfect. Well... I barely passed. Needless to say, I was immensely frustrated.

6. Jake wore grey last Saturday. I was fervently hoping he'd wear green. So I guess I'll wait for next Saturday and every Saturday thereafter until he wears green and talks to me. Till then, I have to avoid every green-shirted guy... unless he happens to look like Edward. But I'm still waiting for Jake. He gave me an extra big wave. Not that it means something. But something is better than nothing. Hmmm... I wonder if he'll ever realize that it's me he's looking for. Probably not and I'd probably grow tired of him in a few weeks time. But till then, I can always wish.

7. I look like a maid beside Edward. Oh, geez.

8. I want a Red Beetle. I really want a car. And I don't even know how to drive. I wonder if I can get father to buy me a car. But with our current state of affairs, I don't think so. Besides, med school is super expensive and draining our financial resources already. But who knows?

9. I really want a Red Beetle. *sigh*